Thursday, August 11, 2005
Give me hope please..
I had a relaxed national day, just ran errands with eldon, then proceeded to go hang with lee lee. Rented a buncha movies. It was nice just taking it easy.
Today it dawned on me how lonely I am. And that I’m indulging in a single life style. I miss being in a proper relationship. So much of me misses having someone to love and hold. Waking up and kissing that person as my good morning greeting. Cooking for that someone. Holding her hand and having my arm around her. The warmth of a loving hug. The butterflies in my stomach from a tender kiss, I’ve missed that so much. Sometimes when I’m around a girl, I wonder how compatible we are, and if it might work out? but thinking about getting hurt all over again, just feels like a cold awakening to whether I really wanna have someone in my life. What I once had in my heart is now gone, and I miss that. But with every passing day, I’m hoping deep down that I may find someone or that she may find me… so with a hoping heart I push on. Just that its grueling and tedious. But hope is all I have and was left with. So with that in mind, hope is all my weak heart and hands can hold on too……hope.
bradass at 8/11/2005 12:17:00 AM