i can't take back the things i've said...and i can't undo the things i've done...there are so many thoughts running thru my mind...somehow i'm still a disapointment to you and myself..i really dont know how to fix it...or should i even try? it seems you're not sure yourself ...i don't really know what to say or do anymore ...or how to make things right...i know what my heart is tellin me...but i don't think you can accept me ..because of what has passed...i'm just goin to have to see ..and play this one by ear, i won't let this kill my spirit nor put me down...there's so much ahead for you and i...together or individually...i'm just grateful for what we've had thus far...and i'm hoping things will pan and get better..or heal or mend....i'm trying not to dwell ...and be grateful and appreciative ..and also trying to recognize the smaller things and the things i've overlooked....so with that in mind ...i just wanna say ......just live your life