Sunday, July 31, 2005
weekend blues
well, another sun filled busy week gone by. pretty busy i'd say. Didn't do as well as i thought for the volleyball tournament coz the dam gurka contingent wooped our butts. It really shows their mentallity when we're parking the vehicles at 8.30 in the morning and we see them running up the beach to warm up already. Its crazy .... wala's was awesome on thurs night. Shirlyn melts my heart with her voice. I love it when she rocks out. Its a simultaneous hott and cuteness all rojak together.
julie gibcumb emailed me today....it was so nice to come home and look into my email box and see an email from my friend in az. i truly miss my friends over there. its very heart warming to see that they remember me. spent my day playing cs with my police pals. it was great, just shooting and going ape shit on the computers. hahaha. boys will be boys i guess. not feeling overly intellectual right now. its pretty late and i can feel my brain ceasing to function. the slowness is kicking in. well tomorrow is another bright and sunny day...so hopefully i'll feel like being more descriptive or talkative..haha. well i'm off to la la land. good night world...
bradass at 7/31/2005 03:42:00 AM
Saturday, July 30, 2005
PSA volleyball competetion 30th july 05 (click to see)
bradass at 7/30/2005 04:56:00 PM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
burnt, bruised and left wondering...
today was a pretty wonderful day, spent the entire day on sentosa practicing volleyball with my team. the competetion is on friday! ah! still not ready. we saw the gurka team in action today. I nearly pee-ed myself seeing how good they are. I think the plan is too get the girls to flash some boob, so they'll get distracted so we can spike the ball a couple of times on them lol. But yes, after a long day of practice, i came home super burnt. My face looks like someone slapped me on my cheeks. So i'm completely burnt, need charmaine to come over and get the aloe on me. haha. miss ya char. anyhow, aside from being burnt. I suddenly realized that the 8 red bloches on my arm aren't just the sun burn, but bruises from volleyball. jeez! i'm being burnt and battered all at the same time.
well ok enough about the horrible condition my skin is in right now. Something came to mind today which makes me wonder....What is it about women/girls that make guys look? or even get attracted to them. I caught myself a couple of times not paying attention to the game and staring and oogling at some of the girls on the beach. Why? is it the curves? the long hair? the way they move? the way the smell? the boobs? what is it that makes us dudes look? going more indepth into the topic...what is about girls that makes us guys fall for them? and then after, what is it about girls, that its somehow standard protocol to screw the guy up and break up? i just dont get it.
good people deserve better. i'm sure everyone has a friend going out with a total jerk or a total bitch. WHY? its like hey! there are so many good people around, looking for the right person to be with. someone wonderful. someone to fall in love with. its like somehow or rather god made the world so that all the good people get screwed over. well maybe its just me. I try not to be too hard on myself by saying its probably not just me. I wanna try and include the general public, so i'm not this completely miserable lonely bloke. but nevertheless, it amazes me how guys always get screwed over by girls. is it socio-cratic norms? or is it statiscally impossible to be happy and settle down with someone wonderful.
as much as i would love to ponder over these complexed questions to love or life. I'd rather not indulge too much. maybe there are no answers to my wondering mind. maybe its just impossible. well all i can say is .....i wish i didn't feel so burnt from volleyballing ...and dam u sexy girl who walked by me and got me thinkin about all this shit !
bradass at 7/27/2005 10:58:00 PM
beach photography (click to see)
bradass at 7/27/2005 08:42:00 PM
odd hours of lasting sun burnt skin...
a hot tea is made, my fav piggy patterned mug and i see the steam rising from the delicious tea. Its an odd hour to be sharing thoughts right now however my odd sleeping habbits are due to me dozing off right after dinner due to fatigue. I've just showered so my hair is a lil damp and i'm smelling so clean. I'm listening to music that reminds me of happier times in my life. The thought of her steams in. But its nostalgic as oppose to upsetting now. It would've been great is what i say. But some things aren't meant to be and some things aren't in my control. So oh well, i'd shrug my shoulders but i'm weak now. My body is aching and i'm sun burnt.
Been training too hard at east coast this week for the volley ball competetion on friday. Yes! i know i'm in the volley ball team, please dont comment otherwise. I think i'm making an extra effort in my life now to meet new people and really participate in activities which are fun and refreshing to my mind. And what else could be cooler than seeing hott investigation officers let their hair down and strap on a bikini and getting sweaty playing volley ball! lolol ( slight perv thoughts stream in now.) my hand is throbbing and the muscle is swollen due to serving the ball so much today, "improvement!" is what our long winded coach vincent exclaimed to me today. So i guess i'm filled with satisfaction that i'm able to play beach volleyball and impress someone.
ok side thought, jessica ang is so cute, she is probably one of the only few girls i know in my entire life that looks good with short hair. Her smile radiates the court and its hard not to stare into her eyes when i'm serving the ball into the other half. sighzzz. anyhow tomorrow is gonna be another sun filled day on the beach, this time sentosa. yipee! my heart skips a beat thinkin about the beach. I have this personal attachment to the beach and the peace that it brings me. The crashing waves, cool breeze and the slightly tingly gritty sensation that comes between my toes. Its truely heaven on earth sometimes. well i shall leave you with that peaceful thought tonight...goodnight world ...bradass at 7/27/2005 01:34:00 AM
Monday, July 25, 2005
Dashboard confessional - Screaming Infidelities
I'm missing your bed. I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak, And this bottle of beast. Is taking me home
I'm cuddling close. To blankets and sheets. But you're not alone, and you're not discreet. Make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again. There's not a word that I comprehend, Except when you signed it "I will love you always and forever."
Well As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs. And sit alone and wonder How you're making out. But as for me, I wish that I was anywhere with anyone Making out.
I'm missing your laugh. How did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.
I am alone. In my defeat I wish I knew you were safely at home
Your hair, it's everywhere. Screaming infidelities. And taking its wear.
bradass at 7/25/2005 06:53:00 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
a day in the life of officer brad
well today wasn't the best of sundays, had to work today. IT SUCKED AS USUAL! so anyhow, i thought today was gonna be an easy day at work, just patrolling the streets as usual. Until we had to attend a case of a stupid abnoxious chinese man making a nuisance of himself at a bar coz he was drunk. yes, off course officer brad arrested that mofo's ass! lolol it was sad coz he did everything wrong and provoked me and my officer in charge. why do people have to be so unco-operative. Oh well, i guess he'll think it over tonight in the cell and be sorry in the morning when they take him to the sub-courts.
so after a long ass day at work, i came home late and was super duper hungry, so went out for a late dinner with song. It was cool coz i got to share an awesome curry-peng (rice) place with my buddy. So its one more fan of the infamous curry-peng shop near my house. Then walked over to mustafa to hang out and check some cool shit. It was great.
But yea, work really drains the life outta me. And time goes by so quickly. I could've been on the beach or golfing and doing something fun. but nooooo i had to deal with disorderly singaporean people who take their freedoms for granted. sigh. oh well ....at least its another gone by.
time to hit the hayyyy....zzzzzbradass at 7/24/2005 11:32:00 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
scarred emotions
how does one carry on after going through so much emotionally?
dead is the feeling within me now.
reality kills the glimmer of hope i once had.
gone for good she is now.
and faded like a memory i have become.
does this hurt ever go away?
no matter how hard i try to escape the pain, it still overwhelms me.
the brokeness subdues me and takes over.
the only thing that fills me is the sadness from within.
like a scar left behind, it is the painful memories of her smile that still haunt my thoughts
what once brought so much joy into my life has now broken me.
it makes me wonder whether time is suppose to heal these wounds, or like salt, to rub the pain in deeper.
there is no more i can say or do to change things
i can't fight the fate that has befallen me...bradass at 7/23/2005 11:57:00 AM
lets begin to think about the emptiness
Well, seeing how popular blogging is now-a-days i've decided to start my own blog. I'm tired of writing in my journal every other day. So this will possibly help me keep all my thoughts in one place. Anyhow, i'm kinda excited on learning how to use this darn thing. SO if you've come across my blog somehow. It would be nice for you to leave a mark or a note and explain to me a bit more about this blogging stuff and gimme some hints.
I'd appreciate any hospitality shown.bradass at 7/23/2005 09:51:00 AM
