Tuesday, November 29, 2005
overwhelms me
the pain seeps in .....why can't it go away
third eye blind - god of wine
bradass at 11/29/2005 11:30:00 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
carpark jaga
well i'm back from my sarge course...its good to be promoted.
more money and more legal powers...but more so the money! yes ! poor brad needs mulahh!
well i hope i pass my final exam and get promoted.
been a wonderful week of reporting to the police academy for course. so many memories. and seeing my squad mates have been wonderful too.
after my last day of course, i went down to the nokia center to fix my blasted phone. so hopefully all goes well and that i can get the darn thing up and running again. stupid phone! however the counter girl kept flirting with me. she was cute nevertheless...however i was more focused about complaining about my phone and getting the dam thing fixed. haha. oh well
then went to wern's wedding briefing. i'm officially the carpark jaga! haha. its cool. i promised to help her. and i'm so glad she's getting married to gerald. nice guy too. seeing both of them makes my heart feel so much joy. to see that at least there's one more couple in love and doing so well. i'm glad. seeing wern reminded me of so much and how much i've gone through over the pass year. i couldn't help but remember all the times i felt broken and that she was always there. its people like her that really are true friends. she was the only one to come and visit me when i was at my worst. and she's the only one whose seen me at the lowest time in my life. can't help but think of all the tears i've shed over that girl. sigh. its so tempting sometimes. to get in touch with her. or talk to her. or to look at her friendster pics. or whatever. but to think of all the hurt, and pain my heart has gone thru. i abstain from even goin near. its better this way. out of sight, out of mind. haha. anyways amanda's bday is coming up. so it'll be nice to see her again. anyways, i think i'm falling sick. feel kinda fever-ish. so i'm gonna go sleep and take it easy tonight.
bradass at 11/28/2005 11:36:00 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2005
chata calms me
just had chata. feeling better now. brad is now calm. no worries
was browsing thru my photos just now and i took this photo when some under privilleged children visited our police station. just thought i'd share the kodak moment
bradass at 11/24/2005 01:56:00 AM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
phones and people
brad - foul mood
my dam phone is not working, the fuckin thing prob caught a virus, so everytime i wanna send an sms, i have to reboot the phone, which takes a while. (fuck symbians!) i'm sending this ass of a phone into nokia tmr! and oh boy are they gonna hear from a disgruntal customer alright ! i'm so hopping mad right now! if not for my only phone, i'd throw this fucker at the wall. ARGH!!!!!!
people are just as irreliable as my phone. with the ever fickle minded society of today. everyone is too strung up with everything else to actually commit to a plan. everyone is becoming more greedy and self gratifying. everything is about me me me me and me. i cant believe i've got such selfish friends. if u make plans, commit to them. not hold someone back or keep them waiting until the last minute to cancel out on them. i'm tired of being so nice to people. i'm just gonna take the straight forward approach and reprimand them if they every irritate or cross me! if you're one of them reading this, good! i hope you realise how stupid of a person you are! all you girls that can't make up your minds and all the guys that are too busy thinking about getting your cocked sucked are inconsiderate and have it coming ! yea thats right! woops ! i said it ....that means U! ASSHOLE!!! so fuck u very much and good night...
oh by the way i think this best describes me today
bradass at 11/23/2005 11:09:00 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
weekend special
adrenaline - when a fight breaks out and the culrpit flees from the scene of crime, officers on duty at the scene (me) respond and give chase.
had to work this weekend, pretty action packed weekend, considering that i was on ops and then went on rounds after the ops. (ask me for details). slept most of my sunday coz i was up all night working. then had dinner and went lan gaming. i really need to stop being a comp geek and get a life. as i was walking around town. it suddenly dawned on me that all the cute and pretty girls were walking with all the weirdo guys. haha. a hot chinese girl would be walking with a possibly african looking male. the cute girls, with the blondy ah bengs. kinda weird. however i realised that all the hot girls seem to have a selective taste for the usual. makes me wonder...am i common blend? is that why i'm unable to get a hott gf? hmmm....well aside from that...it was quite amusing. i guess i'm pretty contented by my lonesome. but still...its nice to have someone. guess i'll have to where a turban or something, maybe i should get my mohawk now instead of waiting after NS. maybe that might make me look odd and i'll be able to swoon a hot girl. hahaha. well my sarge course starts this week. which is a good thing....woo...more pay! so hopefully i'll be able to come home early. its nice to see all my squad mates again too. good times and plenty more to come...
bradass at 11/21/2005 01:49:00 AM
Saturday, November 19, 2005
square eyes
been starring at the comp screen too much
my geek-ish side has been shining as of lately...
late nights, gaming, starring at the screen, spending time alone...
my eyes are so gonna turn square!
bradass at 11/19/2005 05:20:00 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005
selling tissue
today i feel appreciative and yet horrible
was walkin home from work when i saw this old lady, no less than 60
standing outside somerset mrt, selling tissue and also maggie mee, and some other things she had from her plastic bag. i felt so disgusted! but disgusted at myself and the people around. my heart broke into pieces when i saw her. god knows how many hours she had been standing there in the middle of nowhere tryin to selling her belongings just to have a few dollars to eat a square meal. no child should allow their parent to be reduced to such a state. and no human should allow that for another. i felt so digusted at myself. even the ipod i had in my hand was probably 2 months worth of living for that old lady. It suddenly made me realize how precious life is and that i shouldn't take it for granted. coz at any one time i could be just like her. every single dollar counts. and for all the times i've gone out and spent tens and fifities on drinks just to get buzzed it makes me feel so hollow and lousy. my heart goes out to the unfortunate tonight. and i'm going to try and make an effort to make other's lives better. even if its a small step. its still better than my current lifestyle. if anyone is interested in maybe volunteering with me to do something...drop me a line or something...maybe volunteer to play with homeless kids on the weekend or something. at least something to make a difference. i dunno, i'm going to think of something...
bradass at 11/14/2005 09:17:00 PM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
beach life
spent the day at the beach ...as usual.
was nice. good weather too! breezy and relaxing.
snoozing in my hammock, listening to my ipod, relaxing on the sand, thinkin about life
i need make it more meaningful...
need to weed out the silly people and time to re-evaluate the important people.
plenty of times i find myself surrounded with trivial things and silly people with hidden motives.
how do i make it more interesting?
well no worries, time will reveal all...
slowly but surely
bradass at 11/13/2005 09:26:00 PM
Saturday, November 12, 2005
that guy
how many times must i wonder
that i was the guy who was suppose to take care of you
the guy that would hold you and kiss you
the guy to share all my life experiences with you
the person to love you forever
to hold your hand when you're afraid
to cook you dinner when you're tired
to share lazy sunday's with
the guy who would give up his wants just to give you everything
i would've given up my world just to be with you
i was that guy
now i'm alone and learning to cope without your love
the guy who sits by himself
the guy who can't seem to face you anymore
the guy who walks alone on the beach
the guy who looks at the empty side of the bed and wishes so bad you were still mine
the guy whose heart you broke
so much time has passed already
but yet i still can't escape you
so many things remind me of you
and the thought of you makes me crumble to my knees
that torn feeling within my chest and the tears that i try to hold back
the wondering is less now
how i wish that you would take everything back
i wish i could be that guy again
a day at a time....
lit - lullaby
bradass at 11/12/2005 12:06:00 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
my first photo comp
today was an extremely busy day at work
however i came home was surfing the net, and saw that nikon is holding a competition for
first time and amateur shooters.
so i submitted a photo.
hopefull i win.
wish me luck people!!
bradass at 11/09/2005 11:17:00 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
overjoyed by someone's joy
well today was a pretty awesome day
woke up late and had to cab it to work. then at work i cleared quite a bit of stuff. so i'm glad i was pretty productive. went to work out, coz i've accquired a pretty comprehensive workout plan. so i think i did bout 12 diff exercises today. so my body is already kinda aching. haha. then made my way to united square and bought some supplies at cold storage. bought a salad for dinner and a couple of things for home and work. its kinda nice being alone and doing my marketing by myself and just being independent and not relying on anyone. made my way home and now i'm blogging with a granola bar (strawberry yogurt coated). i love strawberries, yummy! i even bought strawberry yogurt juice. haha. sweet tooth is in action tonight.
however as solemly happy that i'm by my lonesome tonight, i'm overjoyed with someone's happiness. One of my friends called me tonight and told me she has found love again. i'm so overjoyed for her. i shant disclose any names so there wont be any hidden politics flying around. however i think out of all the people that deserve a good boyfriend, she does! and i'm so glad that she's found love again. its amazing! it nearly gives me hope and elevates my broken feeling. she talked about his loving sms-s that he's been sending all day. and it gave me tiggles. i wish i had that. its not something you can buy, or something that u can pick up at cold storage, or something u can plan for. it just happens. i'm so happy for her. how i wish i could have those feelings again. i think love is the most magnificent feeling in the world. it doesn't discriminate. it makes us smile when we're sad. its the most comforting feeling that someone loves you even if you've had the shitty-est day ever. no one can steal love from you. its the best feeling ever. so much of me despises the feeling of love sometimes, becoz of what she did to me. but just today, i'm truly happy. anyhow i shall end this off on a good foot and retire coz my body is gonna be sore as shit tomorrow from my workout. haha..sighh...good night world and blessed are the loved!
bradass at 11/08/2005 09:55:00 PM
Monday, November 07, 2005
social butterflying
well today was a pretty good day all in all. caught some flack from my boss who was being grumpy today. but other than that. it was good. today i went to marina bay area for dinner. since it was weixing's bday, we all went out for steamboat. $12 to eat your heart out. after eating so much, it dawned on me that if i were to ever open a restaurant, i'd call it the happy belly! haha. anyways it was cool just hanging with people from station.
the weekend however was pretty crazy. fri i played lan games with eldo and ming and then we watched sky high which was better than expected. got back at 6am. (eye bags galore) then slept the morning on saturday till i had to go for the corp retreat at east coast beach. then after that jetted over to darren's for the doom movie gathering with the guys i train with. it was cool. socializing with my training buddies and june, pal, timo and so many other people. then walked over and lanned with eldon and chai again. walked over to alley bar and decided to have a drink there and chit chat with chai. landed up meeting erin and han who joined us. i opted for a hot tea instead of a beer. woke up on sunday and hung out with jo at the rugby 7s tournament. shortly after the rugby tournament i went back to darren's to pick up some furniture. went back to station to drop the stuff off and then went with han teck and the boys to national stadium for the home united soccer match which was quite entertaining.
what a weekend....been crazy. hopefully the work week will go by fast so i can have a decent weekend to spend at the beach and relax. so many people, so little time....sheesh....
bradass at 11/07/2005 11:57:00 PM
corp retreat at east coast (click to see)
bradass at 11/07/2005 01:32:00 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Rugby 7s tournament (click to see)
bradass at 11/06/2005 10:58:00 PM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
38 things about me
1. What is your full name? Bradley Lim Weileong
2. What color pants are you wearing? no pants, boxers with moneky faces (i'm at home)
3. What are you listening to right now? Jimi Hendrix - Voodoo Child
4. What was the last thing you ate? Fish burger from station canteen
5. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? either lime green or any shade of green
6. How is the weather right now? somewhat sunny, semi gloomy, looks like its gonna rain
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Sgt. Choo Han Teck, Manpower Branch
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yes, she's cute and nice to me
9. How old are you today? 22 (but got chao lao look..sigh)
10. Favorite drink? Guiness baby !
11. Favorite sport? Sparring, muay thai, grappling anything or anyone i can hit in the face...
12. Hair color? jet black
13. Siblings? 1 younger sis
14. Favorite month? none in particular, however i love the summertime, bikinis galore..
15. Favorite food? chicken rice and ice jelly
16. What was the last movie you saw? tom yom goong ...tony ja is a god ( 11 out of 10, must see)
17. Favorite day of the year? christmas, its a warm feeling
18. What do you do to vent anger? go for training
19. What was your favorite toy as a child? ninja turtles baby!
20. Summer or winter? definitely summer
21. Hugs or kisses? Kisses
22. Chocolate or vanilla? vanilla, but i'd rather strawberry
23. Do you enjoy your friends to e-mail you? yes, its nice to hear from friends
24. Who is most likely to respond?my mom or travis
25. Who is least likely to respond? errr...not sure..most of them wont respond anyways
26. When was the last time you cried? dun ask...everytime i think of her
27. What is under your bed? hahaha...wouldn't you like to know...
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest? edric poon...since pri 3...13 or 14 years i think
29. What did you do last night? had chicken rice at selegie and play pool at parklane
30. What are you most afraid of? being alone
31. Favorite flower? sunflowers
32. Number of keys on your key ring? 4
33. How many years at your current job? 8 to 9 monthes i think
34. Favorite day of the week? well naturally friday, but i love sundays...lazy day
35. What did you do on your last birthday? had drinks at lazy lizard and chata
36. How many states have you lived in? just one ..arizona
37. How many cities or communities have you lived in? 2 i guess, singapore and phoenix
38. Favorite Disney Character? pumba...lion king!!
bradass at 11/02/2005 07:37:00 PM
boxed up
in the words of denise, my yesterdays are packed in a box
today i moved most of my stuff over to my unlce's place. it was kinda surreal seeing how much junk i had. mostly clothes and other items. however there were somethings that reminded me of her.
its nice to be a lil numb-er each day to the pain and time is slowly eating away my memories of her. i packed her things neatly in a box today. some articles of clothing i thought was tori's turned out to be hers actually. its a painful reminder of the past. however moving to my uncle's helped me put that stuff in a box and move on. its a bittersweet feeling. hurtful reminders but a hopeful release of the past.
well as for the new place, its kinda cool that i'm walkin dist to orchard. i can throw a stone and i would hit orchard road. haha. however my uncle's kinda strict. hopefully it pans out and gets better. anyhow, i'm glad to have a roof over my head. ok well i hope i can get online soon or find a connection at the new place...so cross your fingers!
bradass at 11/02/2005 12:42:00 AM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
its a small world and i hate it
gah...all roads lead back to a broken heart
how is that i always land up coming back to you
this island is too small
too many people know each other
somehow
it all comes back to you
i need to escape this ...
bradass at 11/01/2005 11:02:00 AM
a good weekend
ok before i start off....tony ja is amazing.
the flying knee and all the high flying moves just blew me away. although i haven't caught ong bak, i saw his new movie, tom yam goong. and it was amazing. 11/10 rating!!
well the weekend was rather wild. being halloween weekend we all went to indochine. i didn't have a costume, coz i feel that dressing up in singapore for halloween just doesn't feel right. so landed going in a tee and jeans. it was cool. sia yan was pretty hot. she work a pink wig with eye glitter and a bikini with a black mini skirt...smokinggg. and valerie wore a chun li out fit. the yellow boy's undies were hot on her too. sean was a cow, el and me were just plain. Had fun at indochine and then decided to move on to zouk to meet my friendly neighbour. Met up with her and her friends. it was awesome just partying with everyone. Andrea and her friends were awesome. it was just wonderful having drinks and dancing with the girls. and boy can those girls dance. but my personal fav was sia yan, sucker for pink wigs and glitter. then when back to chai's place with carina and zack and hung out there. boy did we get silly on booze and such. it was awesome. but i couldn't leave coz faith wouldn't let me. she wanted to keep an eye on everyone and make sure everything was ok. so landed up coming home at 6am. and then slept for a couple of hours before packing and moving some of my stuff to my new place. oh! by the way i might not be able to write or post new pics coz i'm moving to my uncle's place for a couple of months. then after moving, went down to sentosa with el to say hi to his mel. it was cool just chillin on the beach, and having a beer. the bikini bar is pretty cool too. have to go check it out people! its on siloso, next to sake sushi, can't miss it. after the beach, came home and just chilled for the rest of the night.
tmr is a public holiday, so hopefully moving wont be too bad. however i'm not too inclined about my new place although its 2 seconds away from town. sigh. got some house rules to abide too. anyhow, we'll see how things go. its late and i need to get some Zzz. so night peeps.
bradass at 11/01/2005 04:24:00 AM
