Friday, September 30, 2005
30th sep - 1st oct
Today was rather interesting; I went to sub-courts to settle my arrest case. Feel kinda bad that I had to charge the fella, 4 months in changi isn’t that fun. It makes me wonder why anyone in the right mind would commit an offence. Sigh. Yesterday was another long work day, went to the echo basketball match to take photos. I like how the police officers refer to me as some kinda professional photographer now. Lol. Its funny, coz I’m no where near being professional. However the match was exciting, I’ve posted some pics. After which, I went to town to meet erin for a lil shopping. Poor girl was getting frustrated from not being able to get the things she had in mind. However, we settled on a couple of items, hopefully it is sufficient. Somehow she reminds me so much of my friends in the states, really friendly and nice. She dispenses hugs like my friends back home. It’s nice to be hugged. I miss that. Haha. Plus she calls me sayang! Somehow I’m fond of that, the way she says it, or maybe coz it gives me a sense of belonging to someone. I dunno, but its nice. Then after that, I went over to tanglin country club to hang out with chai. Off course I got a lil tipsy, on ONE beer. I haven’t drank since my birthday. Been laying off the booze to try and keep a healthy lifestyle, however it was cool just hanging out and talking cock with Chai. Decided to call it a night and went home early coz I had to be in court early this morning. It’s the end of my work week! Yay! I’m happy, alas the weekend has arrived....
bradass at 9/30/2005 08:21:00 PM
echo bball game (click to see)
bradass at 9/30/2005 08:10:00 PM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
simple thoughts
body aches - esp the shoulders
perplexed
CSI fan
gotta read my digi photography book
thinkin of a getaway again
cell phone wrap - too ex though
food intake - must keep monitoring
party life goin down the drain
mount kinabalu trip - contemplating
purchase more camera equipment
need a planner
new movies
new music
in search of new people
arizona
dos gringos
my armenian crush
the beach
new dvds
reggae time
bradass at 9/29/2005 12:50:00 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
salt water cure
i was feeling heavy emotionally today, had been thinkin about a couple of things. Got a lil upset and felt down and out. However, my friend sue cheered me up. hung out with sue for a bit and she suggested to go for a midnight swim at the beach. So off course when i'm down and out, everything doesn't really matter, so i agreed. The moment i got into that water, it was wonderful. I felt all my worries getting washed away by the waves. Somehow or rather, the beach always seems to cure my hurts and brings me peace. thanks sue. i appreciate your very concerned and loving friendship. It was an awesome idea to go for that swim. Off course my balls froze and shrunk about 2 sizes smaller, but my heart felt better. Then we had curry peng (curry rice) and i was all better. came home and went to bed at an ungodly hour. But i still managed to pull thru at work....phew...but yes, salt water cured my heartaches...it was a good idea...posted some pics of sue and her cat....i tried to pull some sin city effects on the pics ...so hopefully its not too bad ...
bradass at 9/27/2005 09:22:00 PM
spendin time with sue (click to see)
bradass at 9/27/2005 08:00:00 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
roti time
had my first rotiboy today ...delicious
bradass at 9/26/2005 01:57:00 AM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
mixed martial arts academy bbq (click to see)
bradass at 9/25/2005 03:44:00 AM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
russia
weird dream last night ....i dreamt i went to russia on holiday with my family..lol
however as much as baluga and vodka i ate, i felt something was missing...so i realised that i was in such a rush to board the plane, that i had forgotten to pack my camera...and boy was i upset...so i went to the camera shop in russia and they wanted to charge me $22 bucks for a dinky lil disposable camera...and it said on the back .."no gurantees" i was so mad....hahaha
talk about a weird and frustrating dream ...
bradass at 9/24/2005 12:06:00 PM
tonight
the moon is out ...then air is cool tonight ...
such a nice night ...i stare out my window wondering so many things
so much comes to mind ....
its time to go to bed ...enough thoughts for today ...
bradass at 9/24/2005 04:26:00 AM
Friday, September 23, 2005
it is gone
love ...sigh...i dont even know what that is anymore? it use to be this wonderful feeling that would make me feel like i'm alive. I use to be in love. once. such a wonderous feeling to have that someone. and u know deep down that no matter what would happen...u could always go back to that person. so much shared. now, i'm utterly disgusted at the feeling. cheated perhaps. i look around and i see couples, how does one know that he/she is in love? what does love mean? to think about going thru another heart wrenching relationship just makes me tired....it is gone...that feeling of love doesn't fill my soul anymore.
was at walas tonite...and off course the unexpected was playing. Shirlyn sang some really sad songs. Made me think about her and remember all those happy times. I look at myself now and it just makes me sad....to imagine how i was once filled with love and care...and now i'm just this lonely fool who can't even feel love anymore....my bleeding heart weeps...time and time i replay in my mind how good it could've been and how much i loved her. And then i remember that day...that horrifying heart breaking day....and that she just took my joy away.....i'm disgusted at myself for loving her so much...and yet disgusted for still loving her now...why do i have this undying love and miss for this person? i just dont understand...will this hurt go? how much do i have to run and move on before it leaves me in peace...it haunts me....how will this all end? as such i am alone now...it is gone...that feeling ....gone
damien rice - blowers daughter
jonny cash - hurt
bradass at 9/23/2005 01:55:00 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
VSC commander visits tanglin police division (click to see)
bradass at 9/20/2005 01:09:00 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
morning after zouk
bradass at 9/18/2005 11:30:00 PM
lazy day
well today was a rather lazy day, didn't do very much. I'm glad i made the decision of leaving zouk at a decent time last night coz i was tired. Sun burnt again..sigh. Anyhow, woke up this morning and fiddled around with my camera. Then met eldon for lunch at adam road market. Ah yes! the sweet delight of my strawberry banana fruit drink made my day. Then after a pretty good lunch, we headed over to Chai's to give him a warm welcome back from LA. then pretty much lazed at his place. Somehow or rather i'm in a weird mood today, so i decided to ask eldon to drop me off at newton and walk home from there. I enjoyed the stroll home. Pretty much another lazy sunday spent. i dread returning back to work tmr...yesh...but nevertheless....life carries on...
bradass at 9/18/2005 11:10:00 PM
just want you to know
was in the car with des today on the way to the beach, when i heard this song...its pretty good ...i know i know ...its a backstreet boys song ...however the lyrics kinda hit me today ...so i'm sharing it ...
Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they went cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move my ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away
And I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else
I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know
bradass at 9/18/2005 03:32:00 AM
Friday, September 16, 2005
OHS meeting (click to see)
bradass at 9/16/2005 01:17:00 AM
release me please..
i dreamt of you today,
i dreamt there was a carnival in bugis and your fav. movie had some kinda booth at the show
they had an actual ride around the city on the flying bicycles from your fav. movie, ET
and we were happily shopping. and you kept tugging on my arm asking me to take you to the rides. off course i lovingly agreed.
when we got to the rides ...we got on the bicycles and just before you could kiss me on the cheek to say thank you ...i woke up...
talk about hurtful memories...sigh....when will this pain release me ?
bradass at 9/16/2005 12:40:00 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
exhaust my hurt
my body aches.
my legs feel like their on fire, my shins have splints.
my arms can barely move. it aches.
my shoulders can't even shrug.
my lungs feel like giving out.
push and push i must.
run as hard as i can, lift as much as i can, take this dam hurt and pain away.
exhaust my body i will
exhaustion so that i wont feel my heartache, exhaustion to sleep and not dream about you.
my body aches.
thank sgt usman for inviting me to join the PTI course, its an honor to be asked.
bradass at 9/14/2005 12:33:00 AM
digital silence
the msn notice comes up....its her....
not a word is uttered between us
a dead silence runs throughout
how sad has it become? we dont even talk.
the pain and silence continues......
rolling stones - you can't always get what you want
bradass at 9/14/2005 12:28:00 AM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
my mind kills me
stumbled across your photo today....it made me sick in my stomach. I dunno whether the feeling was sick of seeing you happy without me...or sick coz i gave you everything and i would sacrifice my world for you and yet you treated me insignificantly. I don't get it ? how does one photo say so much to me? the very sight of it makes me have so many thoughts and feelings. my mind kills me. i just dont get it ...how does one picture have anything to do with making my left side of my chest ache? i wish it hadn't been this way ....sigh..my mind kills me
bradass at 9/13/2005 09:13:00 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
a september weekend
another wonderful weekend gone by....
its late and i've got to work tmr...so i'll keep it short ...
went around town on sat with amanda...thanks babe....got all my errands done...spent sunday buying camera peripherals...dry box, silica gel, tripod, stuff like that...had dinner with godma ..that was cool...ended it off with band of brothers at seans....ok super sleepy now ...night folks...
bradass at 9/12/2005 02:09:00 AM
11th Sep 05 (click to see)
bradass at 9/12/2005 01:57:00 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
sorry mr boredom...i stood u up...
well tonite i was definitly not gonna hang out with mr boredom...
and i refused to give into staying home and nua-ing
so i dragged vanessa out for a movie and makan...thanks vee...
longest yard was ok...funny and dumb all at the same time...just another way of passing time and oogling at a movie screen for a couple of hours.....then we went down to the prata house....i didn't chata (cheese prata) however i was treated to a ikan bilis nasi goreng ...just delightful...yum yum ...then headed over to thompson cc for dota! taste my blade ! ...a fun filled night with awesome company...thanks vee and friends...and thanks to gils and jay...woohoo! at least my week wasn't so dull....a formal apologies to mr boredom, sorry i couldn't hang out...hehe...
night guys ..its late and i'm def gonna suffer at work tmr...
bradass at 9/09/2005 04:02:00 AM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
the boredom takes over...
brad: hello mr boredom
mr boredom: hello mr brad
brad: how are u today?
mr boredom: i'm great, what have u been up too?
brad: oh nothing, just being bored at home
mr boredom: thats awesome
brad: thanks man, you're the best mr.boredom...yipee!
bradass at 9/08/2005 07:52:00 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
my first Nikon
well, just to keep you guys posted.....i've gotten a new DSLR camera, Nikon d50. So if any of you are particularly interested in photography and would like to share knowledge please feel free to contact me. I'm so excited, i've been snapping pictures like crazy. I got to test out my new baby for the first time at Daniel's wedding. woohoo! So you guys will be seeing a lot more cooler pictures from now on! yay!
P.S: I'm looking for people to do head-shots and model-like photos for...so if you want some awesome pics of yourself ..please dun be shy to ask uncle brad to shoot you hor !
bradass at 9/05/2005 03:51:00 PM
my new DSLR at work ! (click to see)
bradass at 9/05/2005 03:47:00 PM
daniel's wedding (click to see)
bradass at 9/05/2005 03:42:00 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
Jasmine
My work days are pretty busy and stressful most of the time. However, I usually don’t go for my lunch most days, I stay in the office and take a nap to try and gain back some rest for the remainder of my stressful day.
However today was a lil weird, coz I had a dream. The dream didn’t make sense at all. I dreamt that someone provoked me at work, so I went down to the armory and drew my handgun, I chased that person all around the building until I was finally caught by Jasmine. (a very cute officer I work with). She then promptly handcuffed me and brought me down to lockup. When we got to the lockup area…she suddenly straddled me and started kissing me. Then suddenly in the midst of my make out session i was rudely awaken by xing xing (co-worker)….but nevertheless a weird and awesome dream at work ….hehe…
bradass at 9/02/2005 06:45:00 PM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
your big brown eyes..
I slowly come to my senses. I hear the air-con blowing. I feel her warmth. I open my eyes, and see her soundly sleeping. The light peers through the curtains. I snuggle in closer to her. Her soft skin feels like silk to my touch. Her big brown eyes open, and she gazes into my eyes. Her eyes pierce right through my soul. Just looking at her tells me that she loved me. Her big brown innocent loving eyes, how can I ever forget that look she gave me. My heart skips a beat when she gazed into my eyes. Her smell of sweet cookies and tangerine fill my senses. I lean over and give her a kiss kiss on her soft lips. She accepts my good morning kiss and leans back into it. We pull away, and she snuggles right into my chest. I wrap my arm around her and I kiss her forehead. I can tell she wants to cuddle somemore……i miss u.....broken again
Damien rice - delicate
bradass at 9/01/2005 10:39:00 PM
chillin in margaritaville (click to enlarge)
bradass at 9/01/2005 10:02:00 PM
