Thursday, August 04, 2005
someday
my body aches, its been a rather peaceful night just spending it with myself. the television occupies my time and somehow turns me into a typical coach potato. just resting in my army tee and muay thai shorts brings me to a peaceful state. so much has passed over the few monthes in this place. so much i've gone through. i'm grateful for this painful growth in my life. its truly awaken me to a certain extent. the night fills with a calm humid feeling. the lyrics of dashboard fill my ears. my weary body tells me that it needs rest, but my mind carries on into deep thought of my life and where i am now. how can i deny the fact that i've fallen so far from where i use to be. i use to be cheery, the life of the party, the guy people would come to for advice. But somehow that has dwindled down to self pity and an empty feeling. How do i fill this void? time and time i try to push forward into the neverending struggle of becoming the person i use to be. but the further i try, the more i'm painfully reminded of her and the pain. someone save me..please..its like space, no matter how loud i scream or shout for help, i just keep drifting into the deep black silent void. ....so until then, i'll just have to keep pushing, and maybe someday i will find that happiness again...someday....
bradass at 8/04/2005 12:38:00 AM