Tuesday, January 10, 2006
a lonely morning
its 7.30am now, i can't sleep anymore. i dozed off at 9 or 10pm last night. so i feel extremely well rested. woke up this morning to surf on the net and checked out camera stuff as usual. somehow, my wandering mind strolled into a couple of websites that i should never visit. and sorefully reminded of her again. how i wish i could escape her. its been exactly 1 year 10 days since she broke my heart. and i'm pushing on and further away from her. its good that i'm not feeling as broken as before.
however i can def tell, that its still a tender issue. so here i am all alone in my room, at the break of day, blogging about my ex and listening to some lonely ballad, on a public holiday....yes ...it has dwindled to this. how sad.
some thoughts...
the sun pears thru my windows...
the song echos of lost loves and lonely days
my heart no longer feels the joy it use too
the tears have dried up
i stare blankly out into the nothingness
not a feeling of joy comes to mind
just the lingering memory of the sweet kisses we use to share, remain.
i'm numb to the pain
the light uncovers more of my room
its so empty
so cold
so quiet
no snores of cuteness
no cuddles of love
just bare
my chest tightens up,
its hard to breathe
and yet the tears still dont come
i stare on...into the emptiness
bradass at 1/10/2006 07:25:00 AM
